Tonight as she was going to bed Cheryl asked me some questions because she wanted to understand.
C – There is one thing that I really want to understand. So, I have a question.
Me – Sure. What’s your question?
C – Well I know Jan is in heaven so she doesn’t sleep here. Right?
Me – Yes that is right.
C – Well who sleeps there? she said as she pointed to my side of the bed.
Me – I sleep there.
C – Good. You sleep there?
Me – Yes.
C – Okay. Good night then. I love you.
Me – Goodnight. I love you too. I am going to unload the dishwasher and read for a bit. I’ll be in later.
This exchange left me speechless for a minute. Cheryl often thinks Jan is in bed with her. In the early morning hours she will call out to her. They slept in the same double bed as kids until Cheryl left to go away to high school. Even then they shared a bed in the summers.
When we got married she went from sharing a bed with Janice to sharing a bed with me. I had not slept with anyone when I was a child. I may have shared a room with my sister when we were very small but I do not remember.
Cheryl talks to Jan often. When Jan appears to her she is very real. A few nights ago she wanted to get her on the phone to talk about the upcoming Sunflower Walk/Run.
Tonight she recognized that Jan is in heaven. She has not recognized that for some time.