I don’t know which Paul you are but you are acting like the one I love.
She said that to me a few days ago. I did not know what to make of it other than love was in her head and confusion was right alongside it. This is a sad feature of our current journey.
We search for meaning in life. Some find it with religion. Some find it in mindfulness. Some find it with spirituality. (There is probably a Venn diagram to explain it better.)
I have no more prescience for my life than anyone else but in my case it has been made plain to me. It is not what I signed up for but it is what I have been given.