I probably should not ask Alexa to play Phil Collins. Many of his songs get to me deeply.
Come stop your crying
It will be alright
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
From all around you
I will be here
Don’t you cry
For one so small
You seem so strong
My arms will hold you
Keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can’t be broken
I will be here don’t you cryCause you’ll be in my heart
Yes, you’ll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever moreYou’ll be in my heart
Source: Musixmatch Songwriters: Phil Collins You’ll Be in My Heart lyrics © Walt Disney Music Company
No matter what they say
You’ll be here in my heart
Always
Always
Today I was working on material for school and as I often do I ask Alexa to play the first artist’s music that jumps into my head. Today Phil Collins and his old band Genesis jumped into my head. I asked for Phil Collins by name and found myself listening to a bunch of Disney tunes. “You’ll be in my heart” (Tarzan) just got to me emotionally and tears came to my eyes.
I suppose it is hard for men to come to grips with how they feel about someone or something if it involves emotion. Many of us are embarrassed by our emotions. I know I am. But I have come to grips with the fact that it is a good idea to let those emotions pour out without embarrassment. I try to do it in private if I can find privacy. I have no worries if I cannot.
As the Parkinson’s disease continues, I get a sort of slow motion grief feeling that takes all of my effort to recover from. This feeling is occasionally overwhelming. Music can bring the emotional response to this feeling spontaneously. I my case, I usually do not recognize that I was feeling this way in the background. Words to song or a melody will bring it to the surface. Earlier this morning I spontaneously began to cry. I waited for a bit and felt better. I suppose it released something in me because I feel better about life today.
Cheryl seems pretty good today also. Let’s have lunch out somewhere after exercise class. Okay, she said.
It is a rainy almost Spring day in Ohio and for now Parkinson’s is in the background.
Adjunct_Wizard 
I feel the same way many times. My emotions also seem to be just under the surface. One day we will be able to release them more fully, more easily.
Thanks for this post. It’s so true.
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Cheryl seems to be deteriorating mentally. Damn this disease. Somehow though, it helps to cry a bit and explore my feelings – here out loud and in print. And with little scribbles in my paper journal.
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