Angry with her confused state late in the day,
Angry with her actions during it,
Angry with my reaction to her actions,
Angry with the disease and what it has taken from her,
Angry that I let my emotions show,
Angry that I directed some of my anger at her.
Angry that I trod on her heart.
Just angry with my inability to fix things.
Parkinson’s disease sucks and it makes me angry. And scared.
Scared for what the future holds.
Nostalgic for our past experience.
Disappointed in my inability to be present.
Totally and honestly present and
Mindful of the beauty of this day.
Unconcerned with the morrow or the past.
Accepting of new relationships and hopeful for new connections.
Searching for clues to doing better.
Hoping for some glimmer of light of
a new dawn.