Ennui is a feeling of listlessness and dissatisfaction arising from a lack of occupation or excitement according to the Oxford entry that pops up when one pokes this word into Google. I have several dictionaries in print form. They are left over from my high school and college days. My copy of the American Heritage Dictionary (copyright 1971) defines it as a feeling of listlessness and dissatisfaction arising from a lack of interest (boredom). It is a small word that conveys a big emotion.

This word was part of the Quordle this morning. I did not get it. It is not part of my regular vocabulary. It is adopted into the English language from the French. The French have a lot of good words that are adopted into English. Altruism or the root of that word is another. Entrepreneur is another.

Words are a fascination for me. I think this word, ennui, is an excellent description of how and what I feel emotionally when I get home from visiting Cheryl at Bridgeway Pointe.

Moving forward from this point I will strive to become more engaged in life around me. Look for things to stimulate my interest. Succumb to various fascinations that I have about the world. Immerse myself in new vistas of my environment.

These last ideas are antonyms to ennui. Introspection is useful. Self-absorption is not. Perhaps I have been too self-absorbed to understand and accept emotional help from those around me.

I will meditate about that today. My son has invited me for dinner.

Carpe Diem.